Pink Nonsense

16 November 2020

You say you are green with envy

I say pink

PINK as your cheeks 

Rosy and plump

Perfection

Thank you 

For what?

I don’t know

I love you 

I know I love you

I have never loved anyone

I love you

that’s not what you want

but

you squeeze me against your 

chest 

you reach inside

take my heart out 

I squeeze you back 

completion

for a moment I believe in God

they brought me you 

my heart is a pile of red

shredded up

by the butterflies wings cutting my body

I dread the moment you leave

You bring me peppermint coffee 

and a gouda sandwich 

it tastes better

because it’s from you 

We drink peach vodka 

together 

it burns 

like smoke

talk about Disney movies 

I just want what they have 

I tell you 

but it goes over your head

talk about nothing 

3 hrs like 5 min

I feel like I’m in a Seth Rogan film

doesn’t make sense

the smoke burns my lungs 

doesn’t make sense

the world looks like a kaleidoscope

doesn’t make sense

I write this poem 

doesn’t make sense 

the thoughts are enjambed

in my mind 

you cough 

//

I pat your back 

Thank you

For what?

I don’t know 

chase after them

play the game 

it’s what mom says

it’s what best friend says

I have no patience 

my Venus is in Scorpio 

I cling to you 

you warm up my 

perpetually cold fingertips
and kiss my forehead

we are soulmates you and I

Inevitable 

S + A 

You don’t want a broken heart 

but 

I know for a fact 

I love you

I love you 

that’s not what you want 

I’d do anything for you 

It’s caught in my throat 

The tip of my tongue 

I love you